ownership

Things are good

Today Abby and I spent some time together alone.. It seems after the weekend with all the kids she and I just need some quiet time.. With out the noise and the CONSTANT movement lol

I had promised her her own room and today she scored.. Check out face book for the pics...She was so thrilled to have her own ideas come to fruition and it looks good.............. Ok Ok she copied the example, but still for her it ownership...

Owner ship is a funny thing we all like "it" but in different ways... I like ownership in my home it's my home, my things, things I want there...Matt has been so good. Matt could care less what I do to the house... It's just we are not going to be her long, maybe 2 years. We need more space and rooms for three teenage girls... so to spend a ton to get it perfect is not the best idea. Save the perfectness for when I build right .. building a hose will be a chore I KNOW!! but still Kim can at least hold my hand.

"Its" getting better for me I guess here in my city I don't think I will have ownership here ever... Especially out and about but at home with my family I can ...... Its all me and my life the way I live it at home.. Today I used my maiden name its feels right still..Abby, I think likes it.. But at the same time she will say her name is Abby D**** R******

I'm most comfortable at home these days It seems when I go out I get 1. digested 2. mad 3. dis heartened so for now I will go out to do what I need to but will stick close to home...

I have a girl appointment in the am with a new Dr. we will see how that goes...

7 weeks to Paris I cant wait!!!.....Any shopping ideas for me ??

today

1)Having lunch with Matthew today.. thats goood

2)Abby is going over for a play date with a little girl in her primary class and attends her school...Oh this is the "EX" BFF lol

3) And even better the local s.i.l. had "words" with me... Over something I did not even do... but just the same she wanted me to be aware that she did not like that kind of thing ... WHAT!!!!

OHHH and when are the 2 cousins girls doing swimming and when are we working out.... oh ya they want to watch Abby when we go to Paris Ya freaking right.......

I miss my normal sil....Love me the Davis girls...

hello old friend

Hello old friend will you ever forgive me for stepping away for a few months... its that "Facebook" and a very crazy life that lead to my departure... but I'm back..

I'm back because on this blog I'm Lisa just me.... only my beloved family and friends know me here..
I'm back because I need a way to be me...to not say the wrong thing to the wrong person.... I hate living in a town that is this small and everybody knows the players and their choices in my life... They know the good the bad of them all... I can NEVER tell my story.. Every time I do its "Oh ya your the NEW wife" or " your the DR. wife" or "Wow your fast I heard about this the other day"

Yesterday I was talking to a member of our ward whom I will work with a lot in my new calling and as I as giving here a BRIEF background of Abby and I and TX. SHE started telling me about my life now and the struggles I WILL have and how she knows the whole story from Matt's EX wife....... and btw there are good friends.....Everybody always has something to say about my life. I go by my maiden name around town now, its just easier that way...but that will only last so long..

If your asking me ...I'm happy very Happy but there are things that I'm struggling with...

I'm living in a fish bowl and have no were to look for friends or help..... and to top it all off I'm one day 2 of phase one of South Beach

How do I find my way

Achievement Days

So yesterday Abby went to Achievement days for the first time !!

... I walked in the room and thought it was Young Woman's How ? How ? How ? did this happen. I have three daughters in Achievement days. Next your going to tell me I well have all three in Y.W. at the same time.... Poor Matt and Calvin 4 girls in the house Lets hope the PMS is quick and painless lol

Infinite measure

"[God] loves us because He is filled with an infinite measure of holy, pure, and indescribable love. We are important to God not because of our resume but because we are His children. He loves every one of us, even those who are flawed, rejected, awkward, sorrowful, or broken. God's love is so great that He loves even the proud, the selfish, the arrogant, and the wicked."What this means is that, regardless of our current state, there is hope for us. No matter our distress, no matter our sorrow, no matter our mistakes, our infinitely compassionate Heavenly Father desires that we draw near to Him so that He can draw near to us." Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "The Love of God," Ensign, Nov. 2009, 22–23

PS: I stole this of a friends site Thanks Sheri!! ;)

BAD BAD BAD MOMMY

OK

So Abby has a bit of struggle with the "th" and the "fr" sound. I ask about speech at school.. She gets tested she barley qualifies but OK good she can get some help!!!

They plan the meeting for this AM.... I COMPLETELY FREAKING FORGOT !! What kind of mommy am I???

How embarrassing "Ya I was not there,,, I was at Target" BAB BAD MOMMY!!

What was I even thinking... I actually thought for like two weeks I could plan a wedding HA Ya that lasted two weeks. I'm glad I'm already married Could you imagine my life If I was trying to plan a wedding right now.

Matthew comes down every week on Wednesday or Thursday, spends a day or two depending.... so I can finish my work week, than I drive back up to Joplin with him. (5 hrs) Spend the weekend than I fly home Sunday at 6 from Tulsa ( which is 1 1/2 hrs from our home in Joplin) We spend allot of time in the car. I only have 16 Sunday flight to go...

PS: If you want to hear a very sad girl boo hoo about everything under the sun, Call me at 8 pm on Sunday after I get home and miss Matthew and know I have 3 or 4 days until I get to see him!! Some first 6 months of marriage ha! But we would not change it for the world =)

Oh I think I should let everybody know I married that Doctor last weekend. We decided to have a VERY private ceremony just the us, We will have a ring ceremony with the kids soon. Thanks for all the best wishes!!