Abby and her lovely teacher Ms. Popp Abby really loves her. I think she cool to lol.

This is "The Girls" at Abby's night at school for Student of the month. Nice hair color progression Ha

Abby was student of the Month.. I am constantly amazed by her
I love you Abby Congratulation Sweet thing

Im scared

OK we all know I love Gray Anatomy Seriously I do

So tonight like every other Thursday night, the tears roll. Why I just love the writing. For some reason the writing this season has been tailored made for me ( OK not me but you know). Tonight my favorite line came from Baily " Of course he's (I'm) scared Look around)

I feel like that, truly scared. Through this whole ordeal I'm living. I know that's were some of my "anger" and "sadness" comes from. Its just I'm scared to death to trust myself and other close around me. I have this felling like nobody has my back. I get smacked on the side of the head out of the blue. When I discover some new lie or find out some pretty important information months after the fact. It literally takes my breath away. I panic that the firm foundation's I have or trying to build for Abby and I is being taken away again!!

Living in fear is not OK How do I stop it, fix it...The fear feeds itself to breeds more fear because than I fell like "I will always feel this way".. I know I'm in control of my own feelings and I have to take ownership of them.. BLA BLA BLA....But when someone lies to you to your face for over a year, when your made to fell disposable and worthless even as the mother to your child..when your so de-valued, you don't get common courtesy, its HARD AND SCARY. So ya I'm scared when I just look around

Tomorrow is a new day!!! You don't know how grateful I am for that.

Are you sinking or swimming

Life should not be about " Sink or Swim"!

Life is like swim lessons.
Sometimes you sink, but eventually you figure it out.
You make it to the other side with out swallowing and choking to death from the water. I'm so glad I enrolled in the class

OK so how cute is she.. I just got the pictures back that Abby and I had taken while we were in California.. So here is my favorite of the two of us together. There are several reasons why THIS one. This is how she HUGS me... full on, No holding back. I love that her smile is full of teeth that are under construction. ( I love my smile 5 years in braces paid off). I love my laugh lines. I love our squished cheeks. I love that it captures how Happy we are..And how much we love each other... More to come later

Go Away little piggy

No school next week.
Abby's is out on a Swine Vacay !!!!!
Our Summer is starting Early yippee