We are alive and doing well

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Just a quick update


We are doing great!! Our apartment is small and I have to be real creative about storage but its nice. When I was looking at the apartment I know all along where my stuff was going to go. The only new thing I got was a much smaller table for the dinning room..( thanks to Shannan and Health who was insistent that I get all set up the first night. ) It is a cute four chairs round black table, complements to my "favorite store"
Abby and I are sharing a room so its 1/2 me and 1/2 her but what can I do. My mom is in the other room and bathroom. So I went from a 3 bedroom house with a garage to a 1 bedroom apartment with a very small storage closet. But I do love it and its all girl around here..

Our summer is still going strong and we are baking in the heat but who isn't. OK my lovely sister in law R. is not but she lives like 1/16 of a mile from the beach and for them 85 is HOT ( Love you R.).

Speaking of sister in laws shout out to L. who survived a death defining crash that ended up destroying her bike that coast 1/2 of a nice car and cutting open her cheek. Don't worry I already gave her the talk on wound care and sunscreen. SHE is one tough cookie and seems to be doing fine.

We have enjoyed a bunch of swimming a movies this summer top of my list is "Momma Mia" its so fun.

Well that is about it we are all doing well moving forward with our new definition of "family"!!!

You have to work with what you got.

One more thing I need to say

HUMMM Private medical insurance is expensive there is a rally good chance I will not have any, what do people do. I mean there is no way I can afford 300.00 $ a month for cobra which I can for 36 months. How do people go with out it? . It freaks me out just to think of it. At my job I don't have any benefits. I do not want to leave my job (I love it, the time and the kids and I have been there for 4 years it allows me to go to school and not have to put Abby in childcare which I WILL NOT do right now!!!. First with her dad doing what he did and than her mommy not being with her all he time. NO FREAKING WAY.

I grew up and a daycare kid and a latch key kid, my mom did her best but I have such ISSUES about it till this day it would just kill me. Now maybe in the next year or two maybe I will HAVE to but I just can not do that to her. We have been through enough to make this choice would just break me!! I am putting back together my pieces slowly and I'm sure I will come up with a solution soon if you have any ideas let me know!!

Hope you have a fabulous last few weeks of summer I will try to keep you updated better...

LOVE TO ALL

Have you ever found nine lost rolls of film Look what I found

Have you ever come across a picture that brings such emotion in you. Whether it be joy, happiness's or true sorrow. While I was packing I can across 9 rolls of 35mm film. These are what I found.

I love to look at pictures of Abby from years ago and remember the moments. I remember taking this picture (above) and thinking how can life be any better than this.

It was a great life. Unfortunately people make choice that determine the path of others. I guess it is up to the others to decide what path they will take.

Abby and I will be a a different path but It will be one that were on together.

Have you ever found nine lost rolls of film Look what I found

Ready for Church
(Oh this Kills me) Such trust in her eyes
How can you not what to kiss this face
Abby's first real snow in TX

SO sweet

Have you ever found nine lost rolls of film Look what I found

I'm not ready for my close up
It is hard to walk in heels and keeps a bracelet on
Smoochy face
Rock On
Power to the 80's

Have you ever found nine lost rolls of film Look what I found

Ready to make my first Million
The first time I caught her playing in the bathroom
Yummy Chick -fil-A
How cute is this
OK mom One more picture

Straight legs??

Momma why are you packing up all my baby things for Goodwill.

Abby I'm not going to have any more babies. I got the best on already, we need to get rid of stuff we are going to a little place now.

Well that's OK. You have to have straight legs to have a baby any way!

WHAT ON EARTH

Oh the joy of Packing

Have you moved recently !!

It's hard but I have not moved since 1999 and basically I came here as a newlywed. You know how it is. We came from a little apartment in California that had 700 sq. feet. Where I still had my wedding shrine up lol

We moved to TX into 1700 sq feet. It was easy to bring everything I got a ton of new space.

Fast forward 9 years I have added

1. Child ( who has (had) the cutest room ever and TONS OF CLOTHES)
1. Guest room ( currently filled with my mom and all her stuff including a Christmas tree don't ask )
1. One play room with allot of stuff mostly craft, stuffed animals, books
1. Living room
( Garth got the den/ TV room)

1. House filled with accessories, family pics, and 9 years of things
1. Garage with a loft full
1. Kitchen fill with tones of stuff from all the Tupperware, Pampered chefs, etc parties

Well now I am going back into a little apartment not as small but small. and NO GARAGE.

I have made so many trip to goodwill here that the men keep asking how many more tips I will have. I was wondering how many I have made in the last 8 month since I found out about Garth and knew my life would change.
I went back and counted my recites for this tax year so since January 10th I have made 26 yep that's right 26 trips. Man I will love the tax deduction. In a strange way I fell good about it.

It's nice to know that I do not need all these things. Ya I mean I like my things. It's a little bitter sweet to give stuff away but I (we) want to start fresh and free!!

Free from what I can't really define that yet. I want to start a new chapter, getting rid of the old can only make room for the new.

To start new and fresh I have re defined ( OK in the process) my life and what I want out of it. We have the right to re-write or script to be the hero of out own story

I WANT TO BE THE HERO OF MY OWN STORY.

Abby is my first priority !!! As I was talking to her today about the new people we will meet at our new ward I got so sad to see the questions in her eyes about what will happen to her, today at a new ward and in the upcoming few months (years). I thought for a moment "Just trust me Abby you will be fine I will take care of you" in an instant I felt

"I will take of you too Trust me and have faith and keep holding on to your dignity and honor"

We start a new ward today I will keep going back and forth for a while. All our best friend are in The Col... but we can make new one. Probably not as good but new ones. Today we can write a new page I hope it a exciting and adventurous.

L.

I have tones of Pics to past but I have no time I will try soon