ownership

Things are good

Today Abby and I spent some time together alone.. It seems after the weekend with all the kids she and I just need some quiet time.. With out the noise and the CONSTANT movement lol

I had promised her her own room and today she scored.. Check out face book for the pics...She was so thrilled to have her own ideas come to fruition and it looks good.............. Ok Ok she copied the example, but still for her it ownership...

Owner ship is a funny thing we all like "it" but in different ways... I like ownership in my home it's my home, my things, things I want there...Matt has been so good. Matt could care less what I do to the house... It's just we are not going to be her long, maybe 2 years. We need more space and rooms for three teenage girls... so to spend a ton to get it perfect is not the best idea. Save the perfectness for when I build right .. building a hose will be a chore I KNOW!! but still Kim can at least hold my hand.

"Its" getting better for me I guess here in my city I don't think I will have ownership here ever... Especially out and about but at home with my family I can ...... Its all me and my life the way I live it at home.. Today I used my maiden name its feels right still..Abby, I think likes it.. But at the same time she will say her name is Abby D**** R******

I'm most comfortable at home these days It seems when I go out I get 1. digested 2. mad 3. dis heartened so for now I will go out to do what I need to but will stick close to home...

I have a girl appointment in the am with a new Dr. we will see how that goes...

7 weeks to Paris I cant wait!!!.....Any shopping ideas for me ??

today

1)Having lunch with Matthew today.. thats goood

2)Abby is going over for a play date with a little girl in her primary class and attends her school...Oh this is the "EX" BFF lol

3) And even better the local s.i.l. had "words" with me... Over something I did not even do... but just the same she wanted me to be aware that she did not like that kind of thing ... WHAT!!!!

OHHH and when are the 2 cousins girls doing swimming and when are we working out.... oh ya they want to watch Abby when we go to Paris Ya freaking right.......

I miss my normal sil....Love me the Davis girls...

hello old friend

Hello old friend will you ever forgive me for stepping away for a few months... its that "Facebook" and a very crazy life that lead to my departure... but I'm back..

I'm back because on this blog I'm Lisa just me.... only my beloved family and friends know me here..
I'm back because I need a way to be me...to not say the wrong thing to the wrong person.... I hate living in a town that is this small and everybody knows the players and their choices in my life... They know the good the bad of them all... I can NEVER tell my story.. Every time I do its "Oh ya your the NEW wife" or " your the DR. wife" or "Wow your fast I heard about this the other day"

Yesterday I was talking to a member of our ward whom I will work with a lot in my new calling and as I as giving here a BRIEF background of Abby and I and TX. SHE started telling me about my life now and the struggles I WILL have and how she knows the whole story from Matt's EX wife....... and btw there are good friends.....Everybody always has something to say about my life. I go by my maiden name around town now, its just easier that way...but that will only last so long..

If your asking me ...I'm happy very Happy but there are things that I'm struggling with...

I'm living in a fish bowl and have no were to look for friends or help..... and to top it all off I'm one day 2 of phase one of South Beach

How do I find my way